but why does he speak greek?

Hubby and I are doing oki, but we are not very well to do. We started out with very limited funds and just a mattress on the floor and have slowly bought things and upgraded as we could afford it. We even manage to put away a fair bit of savings.

Now since we are doing better we figured we needed to look into insurance. We just could not afford it first and then we just keep putting it of. We have public health care so we are fine for basic medical stuff, but if we ever need to go to a dentist or if we wanted to get our eyes checked out we have to pay out big bucks.

So we ave been trying to look into private health insurance. We did some research on the internet, but could not quiet figure out what would be the best option for us. We sent an email for an consultant to call us and hoping that person would be able to explain things better. The insurance person did call and I happen to pick up. He spoke english alright but this 'insurance language' is so difficult that he could just s well have spoken Greek. He went on a long explanation and after he finished he asked me what I wanted and all I could say was ' eeh what?'

I handed the phone over to hubby and he seem to understand a bit more, but in the end told the guy we needed to think about it .

So yeah that's what we are doing now.. thinking about it. And praying that we will understand this 'language' before we have a dental emergency

neat..

my jeans fit me again! Its a pretty tight fit, but they do fit. Made me feel pretty good. Now just to loose some of this tummy fat..

food and stuff

I'm trying to lose some weight. It is a bit challenging because I'm not really allowed to do any exercises yet and also because I love lollies.

So I started yesterday. I decided that I needed to eat small meals, frequently as to not overeat. The plan was to eat every 3 hour. Now this is what puzzles me; in the morning and until 2 pm I do very well. I eat breakfast at 7.30 -8.00, a snack at 11 and then lunch at 1 pm. I'm doing just fine. I am not hungry at all between the meals.

Now the afternoon is another story. I eat lunch at 1 pm right, at 2 pm hungry again. I drank lots of water and manage to wait to eat until 4 pm. Then I'm full for another hour... today I just had to eat dinner at 6 pm and then I got hungry again at 7pm

Why, am I so hungry in the afternoon and evening? Don't get it.

talking about rain..

I live in Oz now, but grew up in a small place in a skinny cold country way up north. Which is pretty much on the other side of the world. My hometown do not have very warm summers or cold winters, what we do have is... yup; rain. I use to joke about coming from a place where it rains about 360 days a year (and sadly it very close to the truth).

Anyway, I had to laugh hard when my sister showed me a message a friend had sent her:

" after God created the south-west part of the skinny cold country, he looked at what he had done and said; oh this part is just perfect - I need to have it washed everyday. And that was what happen..."

sad details

We got the official death certificate for the little one in the mail yesterday. There was one thing that caught both hubby and mine eyes on the form; the line 'never married'...

The form is standardised and of course designed to fit a person that lived a long life, hence there are space for not only date and place of birth, but also occupation and relationship statues. I'm still trying to figure out why the line 'never married' made us so sad. Maybe it was because we now have it in writing that the hopes and dreams we had for the little one will not happen.

the rainmakers

after what had happen in our life recently, hubby and I decided we deserved a nice little holiday. We call up a travel agency and told them to send us somewhere warm and sunny. We live probably in the best city here in Oz, but home city is very very cold and wet now during wintertime, so some sunshine was needed. Travel agency hooked us up with nice little hotel in a sunny little town - it looked very promising indeed.

The day of our departure home town was quit warm and sunny actually and we found it a bit ironic to leave, and when arriving in nice little sunny town that evening we found it even more ironic - it was pouring down...

Actually it did not really stop raining for the all the 5 days we were in little sunny town and the weather man on the news kept talking about that this is the most rain little sunny town have had in 8 years. So I guess we are quit the rainmakers, hubby and I.

We are glad to be back home now and we even got a couple of days with sunshine after we returned back home. Now its raining and cold again, but I don't care. The kettle is boiling and we have extra blankets if needed. And one day the sun will hopefully find us again and if not we might be recognized as rainmakers and be famous for saving this country from the dreaded drought.

until we see you again..

the little one did finally come, 5 days before his due date. He was still not to sure about this coming out of me thing and even though my water broke, he was quit comfy in there and got stuck. He was forced out via c-section and I was thrilled to not be pregnant anymore

Unfortunately the little one only greeted us with a short visit. He stayed with us for 4 days before he moved on to Heaven. He was beautiful and so sweet and I miss him dearly. I have to keep reminding myself that he is in a better place now.

The little one was very very sick and had so many problems that trying to fix things with surgery would just have been cruel. We did know that he would have some problems, but we really held onto hope that it could be fixed, we were praying for a miracle.

Now almost 2 weeks later, I can see that we did get a miracle, just not quit the way we were thinking. Most babies with as many problems as the little one do not make it to term. So our miracle was that not only did the little one make it to term, he also stayed with us for 4 days after. 4 days where we was able to hold his little hands, tickle his feet and kiss him all over.

We cherish those 4 precious days and are grateful that we got to meet and know the little one.
Rest in peace my darling.